Talk about being a committed blogger...
It has been an eventful past two days. But I reached my limit earlier this evening and took it out on my sister.
I have had bad experiences with renting in the past and so I want to do what I can to shield my sister from dramas with renting.
But I got so edgy and bossy earlier, telling her to make calls [to the electrical company] without really explaining to her what she needed to call about. And she knows better than to ask.
Slow to anger, rich in kindness huh?
It has been a steep learning curve for her. I try to let her do things so she experiences it herself but I end up telling her what she should have said. Or what she could have done better.
Or give her brief and airy fairy instructions that she has to figure out in seconds.
And she takes it all in quietly.
I feel terrible. I am an overpowering sister. I need to let her do things her way and to help her without telling her the should haves and could haves. And to be cool in the process.
To take it easy.
I need to be encouraging, not make her feel any less.
My energy and tolerance levels are really bad after a long and busy day. I need to recognise it when I get to my 'cranky' stage and stop to breathe.
And reflect so I can move on with a clear heart and mind.
Here's to being a better older sister...
Here's to being a better elder sister too (hugs)
ReplyDeleteIt takes time to learn to let go and it is even harder when it comes to your own sister.
ReplyDeleteYou told me before that they need to grow up at their own pace like we did. Remember? You also advised me that they need their space to find their own place in the world.
Be patience and try to remember things that we have experiences which made us a stronger person. They need it too. :)
**hugss**
Yeah, I am with you there E. I think that is why I feel even more anxious because I know I need to let go. And each time I do, I worry about the should haves and could haves.
ReplyDeleteI must stop my incessant worrying.
Which is why we need us [older sisters] to remind each other that our baby sisters are old enough to look after themselves.
*deep breath*
Thanks gurls...